Obviously, I’ve been kinda busy the past month or so…
There have been some times of ease and boredom, and others of stress and feeling overwhelmed. But I’ve discovered that regardless of whether I have a million things to do or nothing to do, I’m happy.
I’m happy to be back. I’m happy to be here.
I’ve been able to take a step back and look at my surroundings and feel so grateful that I made it here.
I’ve developed such a sense of perspective, where regardless of how I feel in the moment, I know that I made it here, and I’m so thankful for that.
In times of high stress when I feel like everything is falling apart, I’m able to realize that it’s not, that it’s all going to be ok, that I made it here and I can make it so much farther.
Of course, it’s still hard in the moment, when I’m stressed out with school and feel like I’m never going to get anything done and I’m going to fail. When people let me down. When I feel like my health and my body are failing me. When I have no idea how I’m going to make it to that elusive graduation date and my dream job.
But even for the things I feel stressed about, I’m grateful.
I’m grateful that now I’m able to stress about school. I’m grateful that I’m stressed about my self care, because I’m finally on my own. I’m grateful that I get to be stressed about graduation and getting a job, because I never thought I’d get here.
And I’m thankful that I’m not having to stress about as many life or death situations anymore. I’m not stressing about how I’m ever going to get back to school, because I’m already here.
At times I also get bored, and at those times I feel like a failure, because I’m only taking two classes when everyone else has so much more on their plate, but even then, I’m thankful.
I’m appreciative that I have time to be bored, time to relax, time to prevent too much stress on my body. I appreciate that I can sit in the dining room during lunch for two hours and talk to different people, and not feel like I have more pressing things to do. I definitely appreciate that I have time to make it to all my appointments and send the emails and make the calls I need to in order to establish myself in Florida, because that is a whole 15 hour course load in itself…
I’m constantly overwhelmed with everything that I have on my mind and everything that I have to do, but I’m so thankful that I get to be overwhelmed again.
I’m finally overwhelmed with the things I want to be overwhelmed with, and I am SO grateful for that.
Life is hard for everyone at times, but it’s so important and such a good practice to be able to take a step back and get perspective. It’s hard, because in the moment, everything feels like it’s the worst thing in the world, but more often than not, that’s not the case.
Take a step back and appreciate where you are, because you wouldn’t be where you are today without everything you’ve been through, and you won’t get where you want to be without going through hardships (something I’m definitely still trying to come to terms with).
Appreciate where you are. Appreciate where you’ve been. Dream and prepare for where you want to go.
Perspective is so important. I think that perspective is the key to joy.